I love helping people. Or maybe I hate seeing other people sad. If I'm with a group and I see someone frowning or feeling left out I will abandon whatever I'm doing and ask them what's up. I can't just ignore that someone is on their own, away from the people they came here with, not enjoying the party. It will constantly linger over my head until I actually go over there and make an attempt to improve their state. And if they're not against it, I will remain there to accompany them. I know what it's like to feel left out, to be overwhelmed or upset with a group and choosing to feel miserable by yourself for a little bit instead of hanging out with everybody else. I've been there many many times for many many stupid reasons, and I know better than anyone that a person in that state just needs one caring soul to show genuine concern for how they're doing. That symbol alone will cushion their fall a thousand fold, and I'm more than happy to be that person, even at the cost of my own mood and enjoyment of the party. Making sure that no one is feeling left out is top priority for me.
And although I love to help other people that are feeling down, I will almost never ask for help for myself. For some reason, if I happen to be the lonely person in that same scenario, I will never seek out or isolate someone that I can talk to. Like even though I know that a person feeling left out just needs a one-on-one conversation, I will never actually initiate that treatment if I am the one that's left out. It's just not the same if you have to ask someone to help you, is it? I need someone to express genuine concern, not just come sit with me when I tap them on the shoulder. It doesn't work if I initiate it, but expecting other people to care about me is absolutely awful too. And that thought just keeps bubbling in my head until it shapes into "no one gives a shit about me" or "I'm so entitled that I expect everyone to think and act the same as I would".
But I don't know, people (at least the ones that I hang out with) don't seem to think that deep. If they see someone getting left out they will just ignore it or assume that person just wants to be on their own and leave them alone. Maybe they just haven't been on the receiving end of that arrangement and therefore can't know what the person feels like. Maybe their priorities lie in their own enjoyment before anyone else's, and they don't want to get dragged down by one bad egg. Or maybe normal people just don't overanalyze everything like I do, and they're infinitely happier because of it.